My Testimony

Hi, my name is Dominique and God put it on my heart to write about my testimony and give more information about what he (Jesus) has freed me from. When I was younger than 5 years old I remember my first kiss being with a girl. So, at such a young age I was already confused about my identity. All I knew was what felt good to me. Along with false identity at such a young age, fear, anxiety, rejection and intimidation also had me bound at such a young age. I always lacked a true father figure in my life even if the man of the household was present. There were many times I didn't feel seen or understood and like as we all know that only made matters worse. As I entered high school after my 9th grade year that's when I decided to fully dress like a boy and at that point that's when I didn't care about a lot of things, being alive was one of them. I would say around my 10th grade year in high school that's when I really started getting into watching pornography and it was bad to the point were I was watching it once everyday then once a day became three times a day pretty quickly. I was bound, hurt by many, and lacked love and compassion. I didn't really have anyone I could run to and talk to about everything that was going on with me. I was mostly just seen as Dominique the basketball girl and that broke me inside because nobody saw the pain that was going on on the inside or even cared to take the time to ask. Behind the laughs and smiles was a girl who was dying. Many don't know but I was suicidal in high school and I used sports as an outlet. I held a knife to my stomach on three different occasions but I could never bring myself to do it. It was always this voice in my head that had me question myself "if you die today do you know where you are going?" and to be honest I didn't know and the unknown is what had me always searching for answers. It wasn't until after my first year of college, the summer of 2018 when I was in a dark room going crazy out of my mind pacing back and forth when I heard the Lord say to me "kneel and pray" and when I heard those words I stopped and repeated out loud making sure I heard right and the Lord said again "kneel and pray" and I did just that. After kneeling and praying I started searching for truth and that caused me to have open doors with “New Age” because I was searching all in the wrong places. I started downloading the horoscope app, getting on different lives to get readings and doing meditations along with practicing different breathing exercises. I would even go to sleep with instrumental sounds with a person doing hypnosis and that’s when all hell really broke loose. I got to a point were I didn’t want anything to do with anybody and I stop being on my phone and started blocking everything out. That’s when Jesus started speaking to me more and more and on January 2019 I fully gave my life to the Lord. It has been such a process but I truly haven't been the same since and giving my life to the Lord has been the best decision of my life. I wrote this to encourage somebody out there that you are not alone and that God is waiting on you with open arms to run back to him. Jesus is the only one who can set us free because he is the one who died for our sins and he beat hell, death and the grave and risen on the 3rd day so that we may have life and life more abundantly through him. He is ready to set you free today if you are willing and I pray whenever you read this you give your life to him if haven’t already on this day because tomorrow isn't promised. I want everyone to know who reads this that I truly love you with the love of Christ. I pray God keeps you, heals you and delivers you from all past hurt so that you can be a new creation in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!🙏🏾❤️